Grief has a way of challenging our deepest-held beliefs, causing us to question our faith and grapple with the complexity of our emotions. In my own journey, the tragic loss of my husband and daughter shattered my world and tested the unyielding faith I had carried for years. Through this article, I want to share a glimpse into my wrestling with faith, God, and the Bible, and how it ultimately led me to find healing and create a safe space for others in Serenity’s Solace.
A Profound Shaping Experience:
As a young girl, I experienced the loss of a childhood friend in a car accident. Our shared attendance at church bonded us, but witnessing the grief of her family and her mother’s withdrawal from the church deeply impacted me. Little did I know that years later, I would face a similar tragedy that would profoundly shape my own grief journey.
The Day My Life Changed Forever:
In a heartbreaking turn of events, I prepared for a routine trip to get school supplies with my family. However, a last-minute decision altered the course of our lives. As I kissed my husband Brian and embraced my daughter Brittany, little did I know it would be our final moments together. In a tragic crash caused by a drunk driver, they were taken from me in an instant.
Clutching to Faith Amidst Unbearable Pain:
Devastated by the loss, I clung to my faith with an unwavering grip. Prayer and worship music became my solace, and I poured my heart out to God, even as I grappled with unanswerable questions. But another battle awaited me—enduring a Chiari Brain Decompression surgery that plunged me into excruciating pain. In the midst of that torment, doubt crept in, and I questioned the very existence of a God who allowed such suffering.
“Humility is not thinking less of yourself, it’s thinking of yourself less.” – C.S. Lewis
Navigating Doubt, Anger, and Questions:
As doubt consumed me, I encountered judgment from those who proclaimed themselves Christians. However, I realized that my journey was unique, and the doubts, anger, and questions I harbored were valid and deserving of empathy. The stories I read about Jesus confirmed this. He said, come to me all who are weary. Blessed are those who mourn. He seemed to understand. In Serenity’s Solace, I offer a safe haven where doubt and pain can be shared without judgment. I find solace not only among fellow Christians but also among friends from various faith backgrounds, fostering an environment of diversity and kindness. My dog Shalom was a gift from Heaven. She was sent to me to provide peace in the midst of the storms that raged.
Embracing Healing and Community:
Within Serenity’s Circle, a transformative membership, I invite individuals to join our community of faith and healing. For $47.00, members gain access to a wealth of resources, including our products, VIP access to inner prayer circles, forums, and subgroups. This inclusive community is inspired by my daughter Brittany’s wish for unity and kindness. Just as grief is as unique as our thumbprint, so too is our relationship with God, and I embrace the diversity of spiritual journeys within our community.
Conclusion: Grief has the power to shake the foundations of our faith, leaving us wrestling with doubt, anger, and questions of why. In my own journey, I have discovered that these doubts are not something to be feared or judged but rather acknowledged and embraced.
Serenity’s Solace provides a nurturing space where all are welcome to share their doubts and pain, regardless of their spiritual background. Together, we embark on a healing journey, united in our quest for understanding, support, and kindness.
“The wound is the place where the Light enters you.” – Rumi
- Have you ever experienced a moment that shattered your faith or made you question the existence of God? How did you navigate through that challenging time?
- How do you perceive the relationship between faith and grief? Do you believe that faith can provide solace and healing, or do you see it as a struggle to reconcile with the pain?
- What role does community play in your own journey of faith and healing? Have you found comfort and support among diverse spiritual backgrounds?
- Can you relate to the idea that doubts, anger, and questions are valid and deserving of empathy, even within religious communities? How do you think we can create spaces that embrace and honor these doubts?
- Reflecting on your own experiences with grief, how has it shaped your relationship with God or your spiritual beliefs? Are there specific practices or rituals that have helped you find healing and meaning amidst the pain?
- Exploring Different Paths: In my journey of wrestling with faith and finding healing, I’ve encountered various perspectives and beliefs. One resource that expanded my understanding of different religions and fostered a sense of humility is the book “So, What’s The Difference” by Fritz Ridenour. While I may not agree with every viewpoint presented, it helped me grasp the basic framework of different religions and reminded me of the importance of embracing our shared humanity.
- Embracing Humility: Grief has humbled me, reminding me of my own limitations and the vastness of the divine. As I grappled with unanswerable questions, I found solace in scriptures that emphasized humility and surrender:
- Scripture 1: “Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.” (1 Peter 5:6, NIV)